My name is Eero Kaasinen, but I also go by the name of MC.
I am 36 years old singer/guitarist from Finland and here is my story:
I spent most of my childhood with my mom. My father left when I was only two years old but as my mom re-married, I got a new father and later on four little sisters. I could say that I come from a good family.
Regardless, when in my teens I picked up two hobbies, one being music and the other being hardcore drugs... And those didn’t go well together. Looking back, in my late teens I should have been putting more energy into the guitar playing and singing but the drugs and criminal lifestyle seemed somewhat glamourous at the time. This landed me away from my family to institutions. From 13 years old I spent the next 5 years in multiple institutions for troubled/criminal kids and after I turned 18 I was released back to freedom. Being on my own, I started to study music in a conservatory. Sadly, I also started selling cocaine and other drugs there and it was not long before I got kicked out from the school. After that I got even more involved with drugs, also started doing heroin and other opiates at the time, more and more. As it is a well known fact that using drugs often leads to prison or to grave(and I`ve sure buried my share of friends because of that), prison is where the abuse led me too. When released I decided I`ll never go back to prison. Somehow I managed to hold on to that, even though I wasn’t ready to give up using drugs just yet. I got married and had two kids after prison, but the junkie life still kept haunting me and I lost the custody of my children because of my addiction. But no matter how dark the things got, there was always the music keeping me sane and being the one good and positive thing I did. Something I could give joy to other people, as well to myself...
After 17 years of injecting death to myself, I was in rehab (I wasn`t there of my own free will, it was two weeks of mandatory rehab)and out of the blue came this feeling that this was enough! I don`t want this shit in my life anymore. I decided then and there, that I will not go back to the streets and to drugs, not any more. I cleaned up my act and got my first job, kept making music and most importantly, reconnected with my kids.
I stayed in the drug program and stayed clean...
A year went by and soon it will be two years clean time for me.
It is crazy to think back to my life now (I`ve also started to write a book about it)
The craziest thing is that when I was still using, I was scared to death of being sober.
I felt like there was nothing for me if I wasn`t fucked up and if I was sober for few days, I started to have dreams where I would take drugs. But now I`ve come to realize, that was just the addiction talking, there most definitely is life after drugs... The life starts here and I am so glad I made it! So grateful of my family, they’ve been a big support for me getting clean. Also, my two children have been a great motivation for me, as I want to be there for them from now on. I hope one day they can forgive me for my addiction and being a bad father. This is something I want to change and I will guide them to never make the same mistakes I`ve made!
Now days I spend my days working at a youth center teaching music and band stuff to youth. I also try to get my music career going on playing guitar and singing in a band, called D.O.L
My dream has always been to have a successful band and to make good music. I`ve also started writing a book about my drug fueled life and how I got clean!
It would be great to help someone by sharing my experiences, so they wouldn`t take the same road...
Life tastes better clean!
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